I read your account with deep interest. First let me say that something in you is deeply courageous because it moved you to have such an intense experience and the immense possibility of growth you can have once you finish digesting it. Second, just from your account my sense is to agree with a lot of the feedback you were given during the training. Even by only reading the bit of the solo session, I can easily spot quite a few blind spots, so the feedback did not surprise me at all. Sending love and hope you have had more time to settle and integrate the power of this experience.